Wednesday, April 26, 2006

"it's a friendship built on silence."

Tears are allowed to flow, but words are not a prerequisite.

Expectations? Non-existent.

Wednesday, April 19, 2006

"You have five minutes to wallow in the delicious misery.


Discard it.

Then, proceed."

Sanity-saving strategy right there. Good to last from half a day to a whole one. No need to worry though, because once the effect wears off, you can simply repeat the process.

I heard those quoted lines, by the way, from the movie, Elizabethtown, which is surprisingly not a very good film despite being directed by Cameron Crowe. It does have its saving graces, however, like a couple of inspiring quotes such as the one stated above.

Now, I'd been meaning to try this little strategy out ever since I heard it a couple of days back. Finally, the opportunity presented itself yesterday, and what can I say? It works. Big time.

Even if the effect isn't permanent or long term, it's long enough to help me go along the rest of my day with at least half my sanity still in tact. Anyway, it's a rinse and repeat kind of strategy, too, so you can just keep doing it once you feel the pangs creeping up on you again.

It really is much better, methinks, to allow yourself first to feel the pain and grieve before moving on than to believe you are devoid of feeling any of it.

Monday, April 10, 2006

you're feeling verrryyy sleeeepyy...

I've always been fascinated with visual tricks/exercises/etc. I came upon this particular one back when I was in grade school, in a collection of LIFE encyclopedias. My favorite among the collection was entitled "Light and Vision," and I remember taking it from our bookshelf as a kid and treating myself to hours and hours of visual exercises until my head ached.

Now I remembered this particular exercise as I was browsing through our bookshelf and coming across that collection of LIFE encyclopedias after a loooong time. I desperately wanted to get "Light and Vision," but the collection is too far up the shelf that I have to step on a chair (plus step on the T.V. rack) to get it. I don't want to risk it since it's 4 o'clock in the morning, and if I fall, no one might see or hear me.

ANYWAY, let me just share this one with you.

Okay, so here's what you do. See that heart up there? Stare at the black dot in the middle for 30 seconds, preferably without blinking. Then, immediately look at a white space (the space around the heart will do.) You'll see a pink heart with a blue outline, exactly the same size as the heart above, sans the dot. The longer you look at the dot, the more defined the heart will be. (Is it just me or was there something symbolical/metaphorical/proverbial in that last statement?)

Anyhoo, did you see it?

Saturday, April 08, 2006

in other news

I made a major decision last Friday. Hopefully, a wise one at that. Oooh, I really hope so.

what a difference a sundae makes

I had to be somewhere this morning at 10. Had my breakfast at around 8:30 or 9, and after watching Ice Cream Unwrapped on the Food Network, I headed up to my room to get ready. I was feeling a bit groggy from sleeping late the night before so when I saw my bed, I decided to lie down just for a bit. Wrong move. I woke up and oh yeah, it was 11:30 already. Great.

Now, no one was affected by my being late. Well just me, of course, because it meant that I lost time to do the things that I was supposed to do. Now, driving for me is therapy. (Yes, even in this country of ours where most drivers seem to be reeling out of control, driving for me is my escape.) So instead of going straight to my destination, I decided to drive around a bit (hence, wasting more time, but not caring since I was feeling really bummed about what happened.) I found myself at the drive thru section of McDonald's Commonwealth ordering a Cheeseburger Meal plus a hot fudge sundae. So with that to boost my mood, I headed off to where I was suppposed to be.

So many, many thanks to XBN and to Ronald McDonald for that quick picker upper.

Thursday, April 06, 2006

Elliott's safe!

Oh he better be! I would have had a major fit if he was eliminated. What's the deal? Did he not do a wonderful job singing Garth Brooks' If Tomorrow Never Comes? Kenny Rogers (yes, that famous roaster) was right. Elliot didn't have to use all those frills in his singing as long as he was able to tell the song's story, and I personally think he did a wunnerful, wunnerful job. Heck, I already have the mp3.

Sometimes late at night
I lie awake and watch her sleeping
She's lost in peaceful dreams
So I turn out the lights and lay there in the dark.

If tomorrow never comes,
Will she know how much I loved her?
Did I try in every way to show her everyday
That she's my only one?
If my time on earth were through,
And she must face this world without me,
Is the love I gave her in the past
Gonna be enough to last
If tomorrow never comes?

So tell that someone that you love
Just what you're thinking of
If tomorrow never comes.

Okay, the lyrics might seem a bit mushy to some, but you should hear him sing it! *swoon* I'm not a very big country music fan, but I swear I got goosebumps listening to the song. He sang it beautifully. Watch his performance and see if you don't go "Awww..." afterwards. I certainly did. Hehe.

I really do want him to win. (He's obviously my favorite.) Well, either him or Catherine McPhee :)

Next week I think they're covering Queen. Now that should be interesting. I bet someone's doing a cover of Bohemian Rhapsody.

Tuesday, April 04, 2006

someone got up on the wrong side of the bed

It's 5 a.m. and I'm passing a bit of the time before I head off to school for the big fieldtrip. I'm actually just waiting for the C.D. I'm burning for the roadtrip to be completed. Can you imagine a roadtrip without good sounds? *shock horror gasp* Oh no no no...

We're off to Batangas, you see. Now seeing as my whole April schedule will be full of paperwork, documentation, compilation, packing up, and the like, this is probably the only break I will get. The only "summer vacation," if I may.

If so...

How come I'm not the least bit excited?

Oh wait, I know. It's the imminent deadlines. It just has to be. For crying out loud, how will I be able to enjoy the sun, the sand, and the water, if I know there's a ton of paperwork waiting to be done when I get back? How will I have fun when I know I could've spent the day finishing more paperwork, hence, meeting the said deadlines faster and earlier? It's just not... right.


I've been working for three days straight now, and somehow the piles and piles of papers on my desk still don't allow me to see my seatmates in the faculty room. I really don't like sitting at my desk the whole day. It's a pain in the neck. Literally and figuratively speaking. It's just too quiet in school. I need a break, please.

Oh wait, this IS my break.


C.D.'s done. See yah leytah, alligeytah.